The reason am not a chirstian (a funny/sad story from my childhood)

I think the reason am not a christian is both funny and messed up now that I think about it ,its because when I was eight my mother took me to a catholic school...........you go in wanting to learn the word but the catholic church just beats religion out of you and am not talking about the boring masses or the military feel of it all.Before I get into that a little back story is required, now my family was middle class African which is another way of saying dirt broke buuuuuut still having enough money for a house,clothes,food and school fees.So my Dad got a promotion and as a result I left my government school to go to one of the top schools in the country .I knew it was one of the top schools in the country because I took a white index (White index= take any school,event or location and divide the number of  white people by the number of black people and if its greater than one its positive)so when I got to this school I made my first white friend Jim(Not his name but you will see why I had to change it )and I fucken loved Jim.Jim used to tell stories about how he didn't take shit from his parents and that made him like superman to me  and he also used to draw these dungeon games on paper which we would play with dice ( I know its die but it sounds weird okay), I loved this game because no-one got beaten at the end which was a rarity for any game I played back at my government school..........ball goes through your legs.........beatings.............If you dint find everyone in hide and go seek............beatings..........duck duck beatings, sometimes the game itself would consist of nothing but beatings.Now Jim was cool until he became an alter boy ,he started acting depressed ,stopped telling stories or drawing dungeons and since I was nine rather than ask my friend what was wrong I thought fuck him with a white index of 1.74 it wouldn't be too hard to find a new white friend to replace him.One day Jim ran towards me with tear filled eyes and said"I need to tell you something but you cant tell anyone because if my parents  find out bishop Paul said I will go to hell.........................Bishop Paul put his willy in my mouth, it was rock hard and he peed white stuff into my mouth.", now I understood that someone putting their willy into your mouth and peeing was disgusting but Jim was being a wuss ,we put disgusting shit in our mouths all the time, infact it was our shtick so I went "So what man,stop crying and get over it,I mean Larry ate two logs of dog shit for a dollar this past week", this seems cruel but in my defense the nine year old me didn't understand the concept of sex,oral sex or rape and he didn't know what an erect penis was let alone semen so as far as he was concerned Jim was making this shit up.It wasn't until two years later when I was watching my first porno on boobs dot com that all these concepts I had heard in passing started to make sense and the first thought that popped into my head was "Oh fuck they raped Jim" from that day anytime I think of Jim instead of seeing my cool first white friend with gonads the size of balloons and amazing dungeon making skills, I see this scared little boy who got abused because he was scared of some lake of fire in some book and that just ruined that book for me.